Friday, January 3, 2014

A Remergence into an Old Story

For those stumbling onto this, this note just goes in relation to a posting I made earlier today about postponing my web series plans and turning towards another production. The piece I've decided to revert to was initially intended to be shot in the fall of 2012 as a portfolio project towards my degree in digital multimedia/communications and film production. Unfortunately, I was not as well structured and not quite as experienced as I am now and the project quickly became overwhelming. I had only roughly nine weeks to do everything and initial struggles had one of my key characters still left not cast for a week into the term. I then lost my lead actress to another project and there I was: a naive filmmaker with still some lessons to learn trying to shoot a 50 page script with 62 different scenes with hardly any crew and now less than eight weeks to put the whole thing together. This doesn't include the fact that by this time two of my three main characters were suddenly left unfilled, thus preventing me from rescheduling shooting dates. I was also forced to borrow equipment from the school as I had yet to purchase my own DSLR camera and audio equipment and so on. Therefore, on top of all of these problems, I also needed to revolve around my colleges equipment checkout schedule, which only allowed one to check out equipment for three days at the most.

I had to come to the honest decision that this film was likely not going to get done with the time constraints I had found myself to be under. So I shelved the project for another one with a script that was half as long. That film ended up inevitably being a rush job as well but the final result was very well done in my opinion. So I consider that decision to have been the best to take under those circumstances. After working so hard on getting this film, My Inspiration, ready to shoot I had done all the script revising and paper prep work done and had somewhat burnt myself out on the project. So even when this fall term project was finished and I purchased my own film equipment in January, a month or two later, I didn't have much interest in reviving the project and, in the process, forgot a lot of what I really loved about this script. Other projects came up, including a grueling digital filmmaking project shot last spring that used up practically every free moment I had. Other projects came after that. I've been working like a horse on various project and about a month back I decided to make that leap and to try and produce a web series. Only two days ago, and about a month before I was prepped to begin production on it, I found myself postponing this web series indefinitely. I found myself with gaps in the story and filling them with what I felt was unsatisfactory material. But more than anything else, in those last few days I found I didn't really want to do it. And when that feeling creeps in before you've even begun setting up the shoot then those feelings need to be examined. I realized it was going to be more of an undertaking than I was willing to and even wanted to make for such a project.

Running parallel to this, I was cleaning up my room and came across a stack of semi-recent film related papers, which included the original 50-page script I had adjusted and completed at the start of last fall of My Inspiration. I found a rejuvenation towards it and sat down and read the script from beginning to end. I didn't stop to correct errors or mark changes or anything like that. I just sat down and read it, knowing I could make alterations later on. I was reintroduced to aspects of this story that I had completely forgotten about and my love of the story returned. I was considering doing it after the web series, which would have been a comedy-based one. But, as has so often been the case, I remembered that, despite my love of comedy and my rampant sense of humor, I am a dramatic filmmaker at heart. All of my best work has been in that vein. While I was preparing this web series I had watched quite a few films, or at least had them playing in the background. I watched one of my all-time favorite films, All the President's Men, and one of my favorite contemporary films, Silver Linings Playbook, and these other films that had a serious and emotional structure, with the occasional comedic moments and I started getting that feeling deep inside that I wanted to really make something more along those lines. Thus My Inspiration kept coming back to me and coming back to me and I kept telling myself, "Damn it! I wish I was doing that instead." Then I paused, took stock in my situation and tried to figure out how much I had invested into this series at that time. At the point I realized I hadn't put that much in it, in terms of how much investment had been made by others into it. I was at a point where I could still make a decision to change without kicking a bunch of people to the curb. And I knew any financial assistance put towards my web series could be refunded to whomever made those contributions unless they were willing to just let me transfer that contribution over to this new project. And so I took that leap. It's only the second time I have made the decision this deep into preparing a project in which I chose to give it up for another. Interestingly enough, the one other time was listed above, in which I chose to put aside My Inspiration for another more viable, time-friendly production.

But now I'm a year and a half older, more steeped in a strong filmmaking philosophy and I have much closer connections to actors and those in the film universe. I am more prepared to make My Inspiration more of a reality than I ever could back when I was originally planning on making this film. So here I am, back and ready to go on this film production again. On my Facebook page for this production I will be continuing to post information as the process continues and more people get involved in the film and so on. I am incredibly happy about making this decision and I'm just glad I made it when I still had the chance to make it. So a new journey begins - one that won't be quite as demanding but will be focused in on a more serious and creative piece of work!  

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